Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Experts argue over push to test autism treatment

I am thrilled that this will be formally studied.  I have never pursued chelation for Jimmy, principally because I don't believe that his autism was caused by mercury.  I am hopefully any time formal study is done, because it provides another possibility treatment and maybe will lead to discovering what causes it or what will cure it.  

CHICAGO, Illinois (AP) -- Pressured by desperate parents, government researchers are pushing to test an unproven treatment on autistic children, a move some scientists see as an unethical experiment in voodoo medicine.

The treatment removes heavy metals from the body and is based on the fringe theory that mercury in vaccines triggers autism -- a theory never proved and rejected by mainstream science.

Mercury hasn't been in childhood vaccines since 2001, except for certain flu shots.

But many parents of autistic children are believers, and the head of the National Institute of Mental Health supports testing it on children provided the tests are safe.

"So many moms have said, 'It's saved my kids,' " institute director Dr. Thomas Insel said.

For now, the proposed study, not widely known outside the community of autism research and advocacy groups, has been put on hold because of safety concerns, Insel told The Associated Press.

The process, called chelation, is used to treat lead poisoning. Studies of adults have shown it to be ineffective unless there are high levels of metals in the blood. Any study in children would have to exclude those with high levels of lead or mercury, which would require treatment and preclude using a placebo.

One of the drugs used for chelation, DMSA, can cause side effects including rashes and low white blood cell count. And there is evidence chelation may redistribute metals in the body, perhaps even into the central nervous system."I don't really know why we have to do this in helpless children," said Ellen Silbergeld of Johns Hopkins University's Bloomberg School of Public Health, who was invited to comment on the study to a review board of the national institute.

Despite lawsuits and at least one child's death, several thousand autistic children are already believed to be using chelation (pronounced kee-LAY'-shun), their parents not content to wait for a study.

Among those parents is Christina Blakey of suburban Chicago, who uses chelation and a variety of other alternative therapies, including sessions in a hyperbaric chamber, on her 8-year-old son, Charlie.

Before he started chelation at age 5, Charlie suffered tantrums. When she took him to school, she had to peel him off her body and walk away. But three weeks after he began chelation, his behavior changed, she said.

"He lined up with his friends at school. He looked at me and waved and gave me a thumbs-up sign and walked into school," Blakey said. "All the moms who had been watching burst into tears. All of us did."

There is no way to prove whether chelation made a difference or whether Charlie simply adjusted to the school routine.

Autism is a spectrum of disorders that hamper a person's ability to communicate and interact with others. Most doctors believe there is no cure.

Conventional treatments are limited to behavioral therapy and a few medications, such as the schizophrenia drug Risperdal, approved to treat irritability.

Frustrated parents use more than 300 alternative treatments, most with little or no scientific evidence backing them up, according to the Interactive Autism Network at the Kennedy Krieger Institute in Baltimore, Maryland.

"With a lot of mothers, if they hear about a treatment, they feel like they need to try it," said project director Dr. Paul Law. "Anything that has a chance of benefiting their child, they're willing to give it a shot."

More than 2 percent of the children tracked by the project use chelation. If that figure holds for the general population, it would mean more than 3,000 autistic children are on the treatment at any time in the United States.

Chelation drugs can be taken in pill form, by rectal suppository and intravenously.

Dr. Susan Swedo, who heads the federal institute's in-house autism research and wants to study chelation, gained notoriety by theorizing that strep throat had caused some cases of obsessive compulsive disorder. The theory has not been proved.

She proposed recruiting 120 autistic children ages 4 to 10 and giving half DMSA and the other half a dummy pill. The 12-week test would measure before-and-after blood mercury levels and autism symptoms.

The study outline says that failing to find a difference between the two groups would counteract "anecdotal reports and widespread belief" that chelation works.

But the study was put on hold for safety concerns after an animal study, published last year, linked DMSA to lasting brain problems in rats. It remains under review, Insel told the AP.

Insel said he has come to believe after listening to parents that traditional scientific research, building incrementally on animal studies and published papers, wasn't answering questions fast enough.

"This is an urgent set of questions," Insel said. "Let's make innovation the centerpiece of this effort as we study autism, its causes and treatments, and think of what we may be missing."

Last year, the National Institutes of Health spent less than 5 percent of its $127 million autism research budget on alternative therapies, Insel said. He said he is hopeful the chelation study will be approved.

Others say it would be unethical, even if it proves chelation doesn't work.

Federal research agencies must "bring reason to science" without "catering to a public misperception," said Dr. Paul Offit, chief of infectious diseases at the Children's Hospital of Philadelphia and author of an upcoming book on autism research. "Science has been trumped by politics in some ways."

Offit is concerned vaccination rates may fall to dangerous levels because some parents believe they cause autism.

Dr. Martin Myers, former director of the federal National Vaccine Program Office, said he believes giving chelation to autistic children is unethical -- but says the government can justify the study because so many parents are using chelation without scientific evidence.

"It's incumbent on the scientific community to evaluate it," he said.

Actress Jenny McCarthy, whose bestseller "Louder Than Words" details her search for treatments for her autistic son, Evan, told thousands of parents at a recent autism conference outside Chicago that she plans to try chelation on him this summer.

"A lot of people are scared to chelate ... but it has triggered many recoveries," she said.

But those claims are only anecdotal, and there are serious risks.

Of the several drugs used in chelation, the only one recommended for intravenous use in children is edetate calcium disodium. Mixups with another drug with a similar name, edetate disodium, have led to three deaths, including one autistic child.

A 5-year-old autistic boy went into cardiac arrest and died after he was given IV chelation therapy in 2005. A Pennsylvania doctor is being sued by the boy's parents for allegedly giving the wrong drug and using a risky technique.

No deaths have been associated with DMSA, which can cause rashes, low white blood cell count and vomiting. It is also sold as a dietary supplement, which is how some parents of autistic children get it.

A Food and Drug Administration spokeswoman said the agency is "is looking into how these products are marketed."


Tuesday, July 08, 2008

What I love about Jimmy...

The way he sings himself to sleep at night while nesting in the covers.  Tonight, he is next to me while dh and Jacob are downstairs.  Chloe is nestled next to him.  As complicated, as stressful, as painful as life can be, some moments are so sweet...

Family Booted From Flight Gets a Refund

Good.  I hope it is because Southwest took notice of what's going on in the blogosphere (I noticed at least one Southwest IP address in my stats yesterday.)  Note to Southwest - I am glad you refunded the money, but you shouldn't have booted them in the first place. I have seen drunks on planes regularly, but you toss off kids with special needs.  It is still shameful and I would want a whole lot more than just my tickets refunded if you did it to me.

Monday, July 07, 2008

Jimmy's Summer

I haven't posted much about him lately.  I have some photos to add later, but he seems to like his summer program.  Most days, he is doing two outings a day into the community - pools, parks, restaurants, bowling, and so on.  He does some quasi-academic stuff with him, not necessarily because it is an academic program, but merely because it is what he likes to do.  He is, after all, Mr. "W is for Worksheet!"  He never puts up a fuss when I drop him off, so that in and of itself is a good indication that he is enjoying himself.  I am pleased about that.  

I think we are going on a little vacation next week - it's the time share week.  I always have mixed emotions about it.  It is a nice timeshare and a relatively cheap vacation.  (And I should be able to go and see T and take her baby gifts!!!)  But, take Jimmy out of his normal environment and it adds exponentially to the challenge of managing his behavior and meltdowns.  A week is so much to deal with.  We usually don't make it more than a few days.  I honestly don't want to go at all, not because I am a killjoy, but because of all that goes with vacations (especially unstructured ones like the timeshare) causes me more stress than it is worth.

Another autistic kid thrown off a plane...

Along with the rest of the family...  Stay classy, Southwest Airlines.  

Actually, Southwest is one of the few airlines I just won't fly.  I have always found their gate agents and flight attendants to be among the least helpful and straight up mean people I have encountered in travel.  Seriously.  I held this opinion of them before I had kids and wouldn't subject myself to the stress of flying with them under any circumstance.  

Saturday, July 05, 2008

Don't Call It a Comeback

I am a dork for this kind of stuff - swimmer Dara Torres has made her 5th Olympic team, at the age of 41.

Amazing...

Friday, July 04, 2008

The Fourth of July

We took the boys over to Signal Hill for swimming, moonbouncing, and fireworks.  We nearly bailed on the fireworks, fearing Jimmy's response.  Though he is still not a fan of the noise, this year it was tempered by his love of the light show.  Even in the rain, the fireworks were pretty fantastic.  I guess the difference in his response to this from year to year is a reminder how much he has grown.

Thursday, July 03, 2008

A Worthy Cause...

Austin Haynes, a Manassas area real estate agent and local public servant, is doing a swim-a-thon to raise money for a zero depth water playground accessible to all, even those with physical disabilities, so everyone can enjoy a day in the pool.  It's how he is choosing to spend his birthday, so some support - financial or even cheering him on at Stonewall Pool - would likely be appreciated.  

What a great guy!  It never ceases to amaze me what people will do help support children in their community.  

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Summer photos of my youngest child...

Since I just finished day 3 of my summer with Jacob, I have busted out the iPhone a bunch to document our adventures.












Autistic Toddler Kicked Off Plane

God, this is one of my worst nightmares. I hate travelling with Jimmy. I have flown several times alone with both boys. The only one that wasn't a complete nightmare was an American Eagle flight (in the interest of full disclosure, my brother-in-law works for the airline, though not in an airport) where Jimmy had his medication before flight. While I know I have irritated some passengers in the past, I have encountered more sympathetic types than jerks. Autism has enough of a profile that even if people don't have a clear idea what it is, they have heard of it. Flight crews, especially with some explanation as you are boarding, usually are pretty accomodating as well. American and American Eagle have always taken extra care to make sure that I had enough of everything in the food and drink department (back when such things were complimentary!!) JetBlue's flight attendants were nice enough to watch a sleeping Jimmy and a wakeful Jacob so I could go to the bathroom.

That's not to discount this woman's experience. She and her son were treated horribly. It might have been because of the seatbelt. The only thing they can't budge on, which I understand completely, are the safety issues. Jimmy hates the seatbelt in either the car or the plane. The Angel Guard has made my life much easier in the car. Unfortunately, it won't work on a plane seat belt. He is also too big for the five point restraint of traditional car seat. It would be nice if they had something that was as effective as the Angel Guard on an airline seatbelt.

My biggest challenge is getting through the security line with an autistic son that is mild clausterphobic. I hate the security people at the TSA!!! Talk about lack of understanding and rudeness... Especially at Dulles and National. Oh Lordy!!!

Thursday, June 19, 2008

School Leaves Autistic Kids Out of Yearbook

Actually, I had something similar happen to Jimmy's classroom a few years ago. His class was left off the Mini Cougar Pride wall, as it wasn't considered a homeroom by the PTO.

School Leaves Autistic Kids Out Of Yearbook
Parents Say Act Done Intentionally, School Disagrees

POSTED: 4:08 am EDT June 18, 2008

ROSEVILLE, Calif. -- The parents of twin autistic boys left out of a yearbook are accusing the school of discrimination.
Darla Granger said her sons Holden and Hunter were purposely left out of their Roseville, Calif., school yearbook -- along with the rest of the school's special needs children.

"When your own school district and the people that are supposed to be there to support you and your kids and your situation sort of shun you, it is hurtful," Granger said.

Holden and Hunter Granger, who are in second grade, are students of the Placer County Board of Education, which assigns special-need students to various schools within the district.

The boys are in a collage photo in the yearbook, but the school's special needs class, including teachers, is missing.
"I got the book and was excited to look up their class and see their pictures with their names and their teachers, and they weren't in it," Granger said.

Darla and her husband, Blandon, have filed a complaint with the Placer County Board of Education, but said they aren't taking legal action and would just like to ensure that the class pictures of their children and other special-needs students are included in future yearbooks.

The Placer County superintendent who oversees the special needs program at Quail Glen Elementary said she thinks the incident was an oversight, not a malicious act.

"I do have a hard time understanding how they could have not noticed that every autistic child from their campus was missing," Darla Granger said.

The boys' father said he doesn't know if the act was intentional but doesn't think care was given to include the children with special needs in the yearbook.

"I just felt like I needed to speak out," Blandon Granger said. "I feel like we are owed an apology."

I did make the cover...


The photo is from when they did the first article, sans makeup. But the angle isn't bad. At least they didn't use that same photo of me trying to pull up Jimmy's pants!!!

Side note for my sister:
Becky. show this to dad and tell him I will send the original when he gets out of the hospital.

I am on the school board...

Can you believe it? I will write more later!!!

Friday, June 13, 2008

Autistic Boy Voted Out of Class Will Likely Sue

"A potential lawsuit over whether a 5-year-old's rights were violated when he was voted out of his kindergarten class could have merit, legal experts say.

Hiram Sasser, director of litigation for Liberty Legal Institute in Dallas, said the St. Lucie County School District should take immediate action against the teacher and implement training for the other teachers so this doesn't happen again.

"If they do this, that will go a long way toward healing the community," he said."


I hope this boy's mom haves at the teacher like a pinata in a court of law.

Getting along well...






Chloe is making friends fast...

Jimmy ran for the door when we were getting out the car and I mentioned seeing Chloe. He spent twenty minutes playing with her. With his attention span, that's an eternity.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Meet Chloe...




Mistakes were made... and I made them.

Yesterday I was meeting Jimmy's bus up at the park, as I have done since DH started working downtown. As any good mom does, I was multitasking, cleaning out the car while getting ready to leave. As I walked back to the car, I heard a little meow. This kitten came charging after me, a young little thing. She follows me up to my car, meowing the whole time, finally trying to get in. I pick her up. She is scrawny and I can tell she has fleas. She never balked at getting picked up. Jacob's eyes got wide and shouts "Kitty!!!" I could have left her there... wait, no I couldn't. I figured given the time of the year, she was part of an outdoor litter, possibly wild. I went by the book - I called animal control, reported the find, and even provided the photo. The chances of anyone claiming her is slim (especially after I present them with the $150 vet bill), so we will call her Chloe.

I have missed Buster every day since I had to put her down. I had wondered where, when and how I would find another pet. I didn't have to look - she found me. Both boys are completely smitten, but Jimmy just lights up with her around. He is a little less hands on (meaning less pestering) than Jacob, but he plays with her and pets her so nicely. And she seems to dig it. She is what I needed, when I needed it.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Whoops...

Okay, so it has been a while.

What's up? I guess the main thing is that I am up for the school board. In Manassas Park, it's an appointment process. I am one of three candidates this round. I had an interview last week and there was a public hearing tonight. I love my work on the Special Education Advisory Committee, but started wondering some time ago if I wouldn't be a better advocate for more kids if I put my name in for the school board.

DH encouraged me this time around. Okay, he gave me his blessing. As he left the house, he told me to "do well, but not too well." I think he is resigned... It's a job I want to do, if not now then in the future. It funny - someone on the council asked about this blog. I don't think they knew that it wasn't political, that it was just about Jimmy, Jacob, and the experience of being a mom to two distinctly different and exceptional kids.

We have also been looking at single family homes. We had an offer accepted on the other side of the tracks. Now we get to go through the mortgage process (we have a pre-approval - the queen of unorganization now has get paperwork together) and try to get this place rented. Mercifully, the mortgage isn't tied to the rental, but I don't want to be house poor, so we are seeking tenants.

And it's the last week of school. Jimmy has his neurology workup, Jacob has his physical for Pre-K, and the days at my job are going by at break neck speed. If I spend the summer moving, I imagine July and August will be the same way.

Friday, May 30, 2008

Kindergartener Voted Out of Class by Classmates

Not a surprise that he is on the spectrum. Forget just firing the teacher - she should lose her license.

(CBS) A Port St. Lucie, Fla., mother is outraged and considering legal action after her son's kindergarten teacher led his classmates to vote him out of class.

Melissa Barton says Morningside Elementary teacher Wendy Portillo had her son's classmates say what they didn't like about 5-year-old Alex. She says the teacher then had the students vote, and voted Alex, who is being evaluated for Asperger's syndrome -- an autism spectrum disorder -- out of the class by a 14-2 margin.

Barton and her son, Alex, talked exclusively with Harry Smith live from West Palm Beach, Fla.

Barton filed a complaint with Morningside's school resource officer.

St. Lucie School spokeswoman Janice Karst said the district is investigating the incident, but could not make any further comment. The state attorney's office concluded the matter did not meet the criteria for emotional child abuse, so no criminal charges will be filed.

Teacher Wendy Portillo was advised by the school board not to speak to the press so she declined our interview offer.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

The Music Dances to Technoviking



The Technoviking video has been around for a while. This is the captioned version. Basically, this guy was a participant in protest against the commercialization of the LoveParade in Berlin (more on Wikipedia) and was videotaped protecting the virtue (for lack of a better description, I suppose) of the blue haired woman. The early moments of this video has produced near iconic images for those of us who worship the irrelevance of the internet. It's pretty funny, though.

Walmart article...

When the Manassas Journal Messenger changed websites, my links to the articles about Jimmy ceased to work. I was messing around and found the orginal text of the article on Walmart. I thought I would repost it, just so I don't lose it again.

02/08/2007

Mother flushed with success after persuading supermarket to change toilet system for autistic son

MANASSAS PARK, Virginia, USA: Rachel Kirkland has made a difference in what she considered an unlikely place to do so.

The Manassas Park resident is the mother of a six-year-old autistic boy who goes through both in-house and community therapy sessions in an effort to acclimatise him to the real world. Part of that experience involves a trip to Wal-Mart on Liberia Avenue in Manassas.

Unfortunately for her son, Jimmy, the restrooms in the bustling retail store had automatic toilets that flush when a person is finished. That loud and unexpected sound of water rushing had the boy, who was recently potty-trained, avoiding the restroom. Instead, he was urinating in his pants in the middle of the store, instead of using the facilities.

Loud sounds are one of the many things that can profoundly affect individuals with autism, and Jimmy was scared to go back to the restroom.

So Kirkland asked management at the Liberia Avenue store if they could replace one of the automatic toilets with a manual flush toilet. The response initially was no, said Kirkland. She said they had told her that automatic toilets were necessary for sanitary issues.

Kirkland decided to call the corporate office. Corporate told her it was up to the individual store on whether it would replace the toilets. When she called the store back the next day, management decided to grant her request.

The family bathroom now has a manual toilet, thanks to Kirkland, who said she was surprised at how little effort it had taken to get them to accommodate her son and those like him.

"It was shockingly easy," Kirkland said. "If you identify the child and his problems, the lengths people go to help you is amazing."

A national spokeswoman, Marisa Bluestone, declared: "Wal-Mart felt it was important to take care of our customer. We always encourage customer feedback."

Kirkland's efforts have inspired her stepmother, who works in a Dallas-area Wal-Mart and said she will take up the toilet issue with her manager.

Unfortunately, Jimmy's issue is a microcosm of a disorder that has grown significantly in the past decade. There are now more than 1.5 million cases of autism in the United States.

With the prevalence of the disorder has come a corresponding need to battle it. The budget for the National Institutes of Health funding for autism-related research has increased by more than 80 per cent, from $56 million in fiscal 2001 to an estimated $101 million in the 2007 budget, including support for Autism Centers of Excellence.

It was parents like Kirkland who were on the front line, fighting the disorder and educating the public, said Jennifer Lassiter, a Round Hill resident who started a school for autistic students in Purcellville called The Aurora School.

Lassiter is also the mother of an autistic child who has experienced a similar fear of automatic toilets. She praised Kirkland's efforts to help those with this disorder.

Along with the Wal-Mart in Manassas, some other local businesses go out of their way to assist families with the disorder.

According to Lassiter, Red Robin Restaurants, a national chain that started in Seattle in the 1940s, is one such place.

Lassiter said, that if requested, they could seat you in the corner where there was no speaker. There are also locations in the restaurant where you can see a TV but not hear it. All of this helps with potential overstimulation of the senses, which is common among autistic individuals.

Eric Van Hook, an assistant manager with Red Robin in Woodbridge, said accommodating those with special needs was more just common sense and part of a larger customer service attitude on which the restaurant prides itself.

"We want to take care of them [customers] as if they were coming into our house," Van Hook said.

Lassiter said the Disney Store in Reston Town Centre was also very accommodating, letting anyone with an autistic child come to the front of the line. Autistic individuals generally do not like to be touched, and coming to the front of the line helps to alleviate a potentially stressful situation.

Lassiter said the key to combatting the disorder was for parents to recognise their children's condition early and do something about it. The other key is to make their community aware of those with the condition.

On that matter, Kirkland is doing her part, fighting a battle she thought would be a losing one.

"I love to hear when someone can get a really big company to be responsive that way," said Lassiter.

(Source: Potomac News, August 2, 2007)

Friday, May 23, 2008

Exhausted...

I am so drained. I was kind of counting on having tomorrow to myself while Jimmy was at respite. The DH has a lot of work to do, so Mini-Me is going to be with me. I would count down the days left on my contract, but it would require too much mental energy. It's such a confluence of events - not merely work or home or kids, just everything - that I really need to veg for a while. I am hoping for a summer of gym time, swimming lessons, and naps... Yes, I have lots to do to put my house and life in order, but I hope to balance that with a little downtime.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Autistic Boy Banned From Church

Wow... and it's the Catholic Church no less. I used to be very pro-choice, a view that has been tempered by the experience of Jimmy and the thought of what I would have missed if I had been given a choice. But to have the Catholic Church ban a child from attending mass - wow, they are such hypocrites sometimes. Yes, I did read the article - the child had serious behaviors at church, to the point of scaring people. That doesn't give the parish the right to cut the family off completely from something so vital. I feel for that mother. Faith is what gets you through and her own church has attempted to destroy it. Pathetic.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Why can't the Virginia General Assembly and Governor Kaine do this here???

Autism Speaks Applauds Florida Governor Charlie Crist and State Legislators for Passing Autism Insurance Legislation
Florida's Senate Bill 2654 Important Step in Requiring Coverage of Necessary Autism Therapies


NEW YORK, NY (May 5, 2008) Autism Speaks today joined Florida families in applauding Governor Charlie Crist and the state's legislators for passing Senate Bill 2654, which will ultimately require insurance carriers to provide coverage of evidence-based, medically necessary autism therapies. Governor Crist is expected to sign the bill into law in the coming weeks. In many states, insurers explicitly exclude coverage of these therapies from policies, which places a significant financial burden on families seeking to provide their children with necessary services. Autism Speaks has launched a multi-state initiative to address this discrimination.

Senate Bill 2654 – passed by the House in the very last minutes of the legislative session -- requires that insurance companies cover up to $36,000 a year for Applied Behavior Analysis and other therapies for children under age eighteen, with a lifetime limit for treatments of $200,000. The legislation gives insurance companies until April 2009 to negotiate a compact with the State Office of Insurance Regulation to develop autism coverage plans before the mandate takes effect.

“This new Florida law represents crucial progress in the national effort to secure autism insurance coverage and end discrimination again families facing autism,” said Elizabeth Emken, Autism Speaks vice president of government relations and a member of the Florida Taskforce on Autism Spectrum Disorders. “This bill mandates significant insurance benefits for the medically necessary interventions that are critical to the quality of life of children with autism. It also provides a voluntary compliance process through which the insurance industry can avoid the statutory mandate by agreeing to provide appropriate benefits for autism.”

Autism Speaks intends to remain involved in the insurance compact process created by SB2654, working with Governor Crist -- a strong supporter and champion of this cause – to ensure that the compact negotiations produce appropriate benefits for the deserving children of Florida.

In addition to Governor Crist, Autism Speaks hailed Senator Steven Geller, for whom the insurance section of SB2654 is named, and Representative Ari Porth and Senate President Kenneth Pruitt for their unwavering leadership in support of this landmark legislation. The organization also thanked Speaker Marco Rubio and his wife Jeanette, and Representative Andy Gardiner for their efforts.

A few pictures from Mother's Day at the zoo...



Jimmy and Grandma...



Giant Panda!!!



Jacob in the elephant house...



Jimmy loved checking out the elephants!



Mommy and her boys!

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

I think Jimmy bruised my rib...

He gave me this powerful upkick when I was giving him his antibiotic. It takes two grown and strong adult to force medicine down a fifty pound child. It's nuts. He will be back at school tomorrow. I just need to get to June 19th without anyone getting sick. I am thinking that might be too much to hope for.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

You can never win...

So I was an hour into my day, sitting in a meeting at another school, when I was pulled out by a secretary.  Jimmy's school was trying to reach me - he got a stomach bug and had thrown up.  After today, I am now down to slightly less than a day of sick leave with about 30 school days to go.  I pretty much got killed covering DH's surgeries this year (can I say again how complete.  It's annoying.  I ran into Jimmy's principal when I picked him up - she said as a working mom, you often have to be two places at once and you never feel like you are at the right one when you choose.  Family comes first, but I do think she is right on this.  You feel by taking care of one, you are neglecting the other.  It is extremely difficult.  

He is doing okay right now.  Teletubbies is on.  He's happy.  I am doing what I can around the house and keeping the e-mail fires burning. 

Monday, May 05, 2008

Single parenting for the weekend...

A few months ago, DH's father called and started apologizing profusely. He book a fishing charter for his friends and wanted his son to go too. On Mother's Day. Turns out it is a crack of dawn affair, so he will be gone Saturday too. It's not like I didn't decide to make the best of it - my mom and I are taking the boys to the zoo on Sunday. Though both boys have been to the zoo, I haven't been with them yet. I am thrilled for the opportunity, especially with the spiffy new stroller. Saturday has sort of taken me by surprise. If anyone wants to entertain me on Saturday, whether its an invite over or riding shotgun in my minivan and going to the mall, call me. I'm free...

On the autism side of life, Risperdal is working very well. It has curbed the aggressive behavior like the hair pulling. I think he is become more verbal as well. Yesterday, when his therapist came over, he greeted her with a "Hi Miss Rachel." Then he turned to me and said "Hi Miss Mommy" and followed up with a nice "I love you." These are the things that make life worth living.

Saturday, May 03, 2008

Iron Man Rocks

If you go see it, do yourself a favor and stay through the closing credits.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

A Weird Celebrity Sighting

DH was coming home through Union Station last night and did a double take on a woman.  It was Kim Cattrall.  He didn't stop for a picture because he wanted to make his train (I would have forgiven him missing it under the circumstances), but he waved to her and she gave him a friendly wave back.  He's been a fan of hers since "Big Trouble in Little China," so it was cool that he saw her.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Lost

I have sort of been wallowing in my own private hell of late.  It's not something I have the liberty to blog about, yet it is sort of all consuming.  I guess in response I started to feel like I didn't have anything to say or write about.  A few hours ago, the phone rang.  The caller ID came up as the sister of my best friend from high school.  Now, why would she be calling me?  We exchange cards around the holidays and I talk her sister, my friend Chris, a few times a year.  I hadn't heard from her in awhile, so when her sister's name popped up, my heart filled with dread.  If something happened to Chris, I don't know that I would have been able to cope.

Fortunately, Chris' voice was at the other end.  I was relieved, thrilled even.  I had driven around after work, running errands, in sort of a funk.  I felt lonely.  I am not discussing the things that are bothering me with my friends, I am not airing them out here.  When I am not focused on the task at hand, whether its parenting or working, I am sort of lost in this fog. I want to reach out, but in many respects, I am alone in what I am going through.  For a variety of reasons, I have to be.  But I have never felt so isolated.  When I heard her voice, I felt my shoulders slump.  This woman has been my friend for 22 years.  I can talk to her.

Sadly, she wasn't calling with randomly.  It was news, and very sad news... a friend of ours from high school had passed away last night.  She is a year or so older than me, so she was 39 or 40.  She died of cirrhosis of the liver.  She leaves behind a son, friends and family, and a lifetime of sadness that she tried for years to release.  I guess we all have problems.  It sounds like those around her in the end didn't do much to save her.  Maybe we can't be saved from our own self-destruction, but I guess you would hope for more.  At least Chris was hoping for that.  She had the opportunity to say goodbye a day or so ago and wasn't happy at the state of things.  But she at least got to say goodbye.  I envy her in a way.  Usually, my friendships end as I move away or move on or get busy.  This woman was one of the two or three people in my life that I actually had a falling out with.  It was sort of weird, but even though we had this one mutual friend (probably best friend to each of this), neither of us took steps to mend fences once we broke.  I am just sort of left with this weird ache and a deep sadness at her passing.  She was my friend, someone slept over, who I partied with, shopped with, did all those things you do with your friends when you are young.  40 is too young to die.  It really is, especially when you have a young child.

After we talked about our friend, Chris asked how we were doing.  I told her about what's being going on.  She is the same friend that she has been for 22 years, unfailingly supportive.  As lost as I felt earlier, I am glad she found me at home today and I was able to talk to her.  Even though she is three thousand miles away, Chris reminded me that I am really not alone.

Friday, April 18, 2008

What Kind of World Do You Want?

Click on this Five for Fighting video to raise money for autism and raise your own awareness...

I think every parent of a child of autism is out there trying to change the world for their child.  Maybe if we could quit fighting about what causes it and make the fight how to get insurers to cover autism, we could get more done for Jimmy and kids like him. 

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Yeah, yeah, yeah...

I am behind again.  Lots going on.  Jimmy's IEP meeting went well, even as his behavior is falling apart.  We are being supported, though, as he is back up to 12 hours a week for therapy.  We have respite this weekend, beneficial since we lack a regular sitter now.  Really, I am just trying to get to Friday.  I think I will provide you all with a lengthier post then.  


Wednesday, April 09, 2008

Bounce for Autism






First off, let me apologize for the iPhone photos.  I need to get a camera to start carrying around on a regular basis that better captures kids in motion.  The event was great.  Jimmy's therapist came, along with his teacher.  They had a fantastic time and turnout was pretty good for a Tuesday night.  Let me tell you, climbing to the top of those inflatable slides is some fantastic cardio.  Jimmy had no problem sleeping last night!!!

Why can't every night be a Bounce for Autism?

In related news, I really hope to have Jimmy's birthday there this year.  Invite my friends with kids, invite Jimmy's class, invite some of our adult friends.  It would be a blast!!!

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Time for Some Clarification, Friends...

Twice in as many days, I have had friends tell me that they don't want to share their problems with me because, as one said, they seem "small and petty" by comparison. At first, I was sort of irritated, but it made me think. Here's what I came up with...

The last few years have been fairly daunting for me. I turned to blogging about my experience, partially as sort of a group response to the constant questions I got post-diagnosis regarding Jimmy and partially to vent. Of course, venting focuses on the negative, the stress and the troubles. As much as I try to write about the good stuff, if writing is your release, it doesn't work that way. I'm human - I hold on my joy tightly and try to release my pain freely. It helps me survive.

To some degree, this blog is a litany of problems that are very real to people who know me well. Everything from just the day to day stress of parenting a special needs kid (and Lordy, don't get me started about the "normal" one) to the IEPs and the revolving cast of doctors and providers to the more mundane things (albeit heartbreaking) like the death of my cat - it is one thing after another. But not each thing is a problem - it is my life. I have learned to adapt to some degree, to enjoy what I have been given. If took each problem individually and categorized it as such, I wouldn't get out of bed each morning. Who would, with that burden?

And, really, not everything is a burden. As stressful as this is, I realized I chose this. I chose to have children. Would I have chosen to have a child with autism? Certainly not. But you don't get to choose that. Your choice ends when you get pregnant. Yes, you take care of yourself and the child you carry inside of you. But beyond that pregnancy, nothing is promised to you. God gives you a child and you hope and strive for the best. It doesn't always work out that way.

I don't think life would be any less stressful if I had two "normal" kids. The challenges would be different, but they would still exist. I don't know anyone who isn't challenged by their life - jobs, families, relationships, personal demons. It's all very complicated. Everyone has problems. Those problems are just as real and important to you as anything I have got going in my life. If you are my friend, those problems are real and important to me as well. It is the nature of friendship. I don't think anyone is the perfect friend - all relationships require time, energy, and maintenance, all things I struggle with - but I always will welcome the opportunity to try.

Does this make any sense?

Monday, April 07, 2008

In memory of...


My pet and companion of almost 19 years, Buster.  She had deteriorated over the weekend, wasn't eating or walking well.  I had scheduled a visit to the vet tonight.  When I got home from Jimmy's appointment, I couldn't find her initially.  After searching, I found her, eyes sunken in, unable to walk, and breathing heavily.  I got someone to watch him and rushed her to the office.  After a cursory exam, they put her down.  

I got Buster as a kitten when I was still at home with my folks.  She has seen me through a lot in my life.  She is the first pet that I have had from beginning to end - they were either adopted in adulthood or given away in one of our many moves as a kid.  I will miss her greatly.  

Sunday, April 06, 2008

Buster

Affectionally known as Miss Kitty, Buster has been part of my family for 18 years.  Sadly, I think we are going to have to take her to the vet this week.  Keep good thoughts for her.  She has been an amazing companion for many years.  I am so sad that this day will likely come this week, but I am really grateful to have had such a wonderful animal in my life.  

A Big Week

We have a big week.  Jimmy goes back to his doctor tomorrow.  With the increase in his aggressive behaviors and mood swings, I am requesting that we try Risperdal.  It's been a long time coming, but I think we are at the point where we have to try this.  I initially dismissed Risperdal years ago with the rationale that he isn't "that" autistic.  He is.  

Jacob starts play therapy this week.  I had planned to begin this a while back because of his transition issues, overall stubbornness, and the realization that having a brother like Jimmy puts a special burden on him that I am at a loss to address.  The recent trauma only increased the need for some behavioral intervention.  He starts Wednesday, though I am only going to be able to schedule these sparsely until they give me an afterschool time slot.  

We all have IEP this week as well as the Bounce for Autism, which I am really looking forward to.  And I am trying to get back into the swing at the gym, so I am going to be hopping this week.

Monday, March 31, 2008

Bounce for Autism

The Manassas Pump It Up is holding a Bounce for Autism to raise funds for the Autism Society of America on April 8th from 5:30-7:30.  We are definitely going - the boys love the place - but I would love some of our friends to go.  Entry is donation based with a suggested donation of $10 per person.  Come out and make this a successful event.  

We are doing okay.  Jimmy is already sacked out, but has left me with a ton of laundry to do for the evening.  His toileting desperately needs to get back on track.  Jacob is doing pretty well at the moment - he is still a wild man, yelling excitedly at Power Rangers currently.

Me... I am still smiling... it looks completely forced and exhausted, but I am smiling.



Thursday, March 27, 2008

The Art Show









Jimmy originals...  Jimmy's teacher was nice enough to show us around.    There were several pieces of his in the show this year.  He loved making the alligator the most.  My favorite is the neon.

He's lost it..

As of Tuesday. His therapist had him wiggle till it dropped. Tonight's the art show, so I will get some quick shots with my iPhone and update shortly...

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Jimmy's first loose tooth...

He's asleep and I finally got to check in on it - I discovered it a few days ago. It should be gone within the week. I can't believe we have arrived here! I am just hoping it makes it home and he doesn't swallow it or something.

As for last week's problem - many of my readers are my closest friends and I apologize that I have shared the story with some of you. As I get things sorted out, I will give this a lengthy post (albeit somewhat vague) in the future. The post will also make clear my reason's for keeping it private at this time. Now that we are all physically well and have an important story to tell when we are ready. For now, please keep good thoughts for all of us.

Enough the mystery for one night. Time to get ready for the first day back from Spring Break. I guess that leaves roughly ten weeks left to the school year, give or take. But who's counting...

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Still here...

There has been a lot going on this week, some things I can't readily discuss. We are all well though and life is returning to normal.

We are going to an Easter Egg Hunt this morning and then my mom is coming to watch the boys this afternoon. I have to go pick up the living room right now in advance of her arrival. It should be clean for five minutes.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

I apologize for the lack of posts...

Spring Break isn't turning out to be the productive break I envisioned. I am not going to say much more than I hope to have things somewhat back on track soon.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Woo hoo!!!

It's spring break!!!!!!

Photos and news from this glorious week to follow. (Yes, it's supposed to rain a bunch, but I don't care!)

That is all...

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Spring Break - For who?

We are coming up to Spring Break. I am happy to get out of the grind of work for a few days, but I have a done of work to do. I am leaving the boys in daycare so I can get their room clean and actually split them into their own bedrooms. Jimmy is going to get his own digs. I have to 86 my office first, so I get to do a ton of work. I would love to squeeze in lunch with friends, but everyone is either going out of town or too far away to have lunch with during the work week.

The one big thing we have squeezed in next week is the much put off meeting with the Community Services Board. It is completely asinine that they are dragging us to this to get a small respite check when the CSB meets with us every ninety days to determine his eligibility for FAPT (which pays for half his therapies.) His level of function is completely documented through these meetings, yet I must produce my child for yet another evaluation. How many differ ways must I prove he is autistic?

Unfortunately, the CSB respite is going to be it for a while. The person contracted to do Jimmy's psych eval (for the Medicaid paperwork for respite) went on bed rest immediately after our first meeting. It explains why she hasn't called to finish the eval. I guess I get to wait until she pops now. Obviously not her fault, but it is disappointing as this will add months to the process of getting this paperwork completed and Jimmy waitlisted for the waivers. The frustration in navigating this whole autism thing is unending.

I am going to bed. Remarkably, I don't dream about autism. In my dreams, Jimmy talks. His voice is little and small, but it is clear and present. More often than not, I dream about the world before autism, not the world without autism. Mercifully, it's my happy place where I look good in a swimsuit and lie about on the beach without burning.

Sweet dreams, y'all.

I know I am behind...

I am running around, trying to get dressed, but I felt like I had to stop for a few minutes to let everyone know I am alive.

Jimmy has been sick since Friday. I thought it was the flu. He seemed better Monday, so I sent him to school. His fever was back on Monday night, so I took Tuesday off and took him to the doctor. Another ear infection, back on antibiotics. He still has a cough, but he is getting back to being Jimmy. While I was there, I got a referral for a pediatric neurologist. And not at Children's either - INOVA has a growing pediatric speciality, so I am going to give them a whirl. I scheduled the appointment far enough out so I don't have to miss anymore work - two days after I get off contract for the year. I will spend the summer doing the neurological workup I have wanted to do for so long.

SEAC met last night to see how bad the budget will be for special education. Relatively speaking, the cuts won't be so bad. I guess that is because of the legal requirements regarding special ed. Still, the growing needs of this population can't be ignored or diminished in bad budget years. It sounds like the bigger problem for us is the 5% spending cuts on the state level. That will hit special education and my son harder. I hope Governor Kaine and our elected reps can find a way to avoid doing it, especially to struggling jurisdictions.

And for those keeping track, I am still losing weight - I used my skip weigh in pass last week, so I am hoping for good news on Saturday. But I have been spending an increasing amount of time at the gym!!! Fortunately, the boys don't mind going.

Friday, March 07, 2008

Autism and Vaccines

You know, I will go into a longer post over the weekend, but I have such a problem with the whole vaccine movement. It's not that they might not be right, but they make it extremely difficult if you have other ideas about your child's onset. Do you know that I feel I can't go to the local support group meetings. The group leader wrote a post about the vaccine case in Atlanta, exhulting in the acknowledgment of the role of vaccines and declaring a start to the autism wars. What, does that mean I am on the other side of the battle? Is she at war with the medical establishment and big pharma or just anyone that doesn't believe that vaccines cause antibiotics?

I believe that the overprescription of antibiotics contributed Jimmy's autism. From this point, I am walking alone. The big autism groups don't give a shit about me unless I believe in vaccine boogeyman.

Thursday, March 06, 2008

Pink

I am getting T a whole lot of pink. A little girl for me to play with, courtesy of BFF. I will have to start getting out to the boonies a whole lot more!!!

Monday, March 03, 2008

A cute photo...



Wish it had been with a slightly better camera... that's how they slept last night.

My Umbrella obsession continues...



Covered by Carrie Underwood and Keith Urban....

Goodbye Neighbors

The neighbors who bought my BFF's house moved out over the weekend. Their house is listed as a short sale. I kind of figured the two in between us would go out, just because they bought high in the hey day of the ARM loans. I didn't figure that these particular neighbors would. It is going to make it that much harder to sell to move to the other side of town. The upside is that parking will dramatically improve around here. Okay, the spots are still numbered, so it really isn't much of an upside. I really liked them (the husband was a big MMA fan, so we had been social with him a bit), so I was sad to see them leave.

Jimmy had FAPT today. We cut back on the consult, but kept in home the same. He has mastered his sitting for 45 seconds goal, so we are going to expand on that and some of his language as well. Progress is incremental in our world. At least we are making it. And we have a med check on him this week, his first, so I feel like we are slowly moving in the right direction.

Bed now. More later.

Still here...

Things have been crazy on so many levels... I will post tonight, after FAPT.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

A little annoying...

My links to the articles on Jimmy don't work anymore. The Manassas Journal-Messenger re-did their website and now I can't find our articles anywhere online. Well, I have a cached version of the first one, but can't get anything for Walmart one.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

We've recovered...

The blog got away from me for a few days, but I am back. The flu has left the building. I am even returning to the gym tonight after I pick up the boys. I had to skip weigh in on Saturday, so I am wondering how that's going.

Jimmy's doing okay... I am pressing for him to be retained in first grade this year. He may make benchmarks in reading and math, but they aren't really able present other content in a meaningful way - at least, that's my thinking. But to have another year to work on the ABELLS (I hope I am spelling that right) and just another year to mature would be great. If you look at him, he doesn't seem six. He's tall and skinny, but he just is so young. It think if he were "normal," I would have the same concerns. Regular first graders seem so much bigger and mature by comparison.

Friday, February 22, 2008

Can I get my $25 back now?

A random article on this year's flu.  After going to the trouble of getting a flu shot, I am a bit peeved that I got an uncovered strain.  

No snow...

...but I got my day off anyway. Ice>snow, I suppose. I am home sick with my flu ridden four year old and my energetic autistic six year old. I don't think I will get to do much in terms of taking care of myself.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Never have I hoped so completely for a snow day...

Jimmy had four accidents today.  Jacob and I have both been diagnosed with the flu.  I am going to see how things are in the morning, but I am hoping a snow day saves me a sick day.  

Rihanna can do no wrong...




At least when it comes to this song... she performed with the Klaxons. Amazing...

Jacob has perked up...

But we are still hitting the urgent care after my meeting this afternoon.  I am hope, hope, hoping for a snow day tomorrow so I can rest.  As much as I can rest with a house full of kids.  

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

He Slept Well Last Night...

But now Jimmy is the only one healthy. DH went to the urgent care - he has the double whammy of the flu and a cold. Jacob is now sick as well. I feel warm and achy (I had my damn flu shot, too - useless!) And I have a big meeting after school tomorrow. Ugh!

DH has already called out to his job for tomorrow - his third day there. I am going to go to work and will likely take Jacob and myself to the doctor after my meeting. Glorious motherhood.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Up early again...

Though not as early as before. I heard the sounds of running water - it was only the sink, but it is always disconcerting. I always wonder what Jimmy's been up to. At least I got some sleep - though I would be happy with another hour or two. There haven't been enough weather delays this winter.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

To Celebrate the New Job...

I bought an adaptive stroller.  Ouch.  But it means I can haul Jimmy to the zoo over Spring Break.  Maybe even a gallery on the Mall or something.

Cookie Monster on NPR

Jimmy's favorite - it's hysterical, especially the end...

Happy Sunday

Well, the husband officially has a job again. He starts on Tuesday. I think he may have another job offer coming as well. If it arrives, we will deal with it - for the time being, the mortgage is definitely not to be sweated. The benefits aren't great, but the commute is an improvement for him. I am pleased that he is getting back to work.

Jacob just left with his dad to go to the in-law's house overnight. I am sort of sad that my baby is leaving, even for 24 hours. I like a break every so often too, but a piece of me is missing when I am not with my kids. I get Jimmy to keep me company. He is actually in therapy right now, but as soon as that is over, I am taking him to run errands. I am tentatively planning on going to church tonight, but I am going to see how much I get done. We are working on getting Jimmy set up in his own room right now, but it involves cleaning out a room (my office) that has been nothing more than a dumping ground for the longest time. I think being down to one will afford me the opportunity to get a lot done.

Jimmy seems to be okay on the Lexapro. I am getting it down him effectively, which is always the biggest challenge. I think it will be a few weeks before we see any impact, so I have the teacher and therapists on alert for data collection and just any anecdotal stuff regarding his behaviors, especially the anxiety and OCD stuff. He had an accident free Friday at school and aftercare, which was great. Time will tell if there is a correlation between the two.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Solo this weekend...

Husband's unemployment may be ending shortly (I'll post details as soon as I have them set) and Jacob's daycare is closed on Monday, so they are heading out to my in-laws new house for Sunday and Monday. Jimmy and I are on our own. Probably means I will drag him around the mall Sunday afternoon. Anytime I can get to one kid, it is easier for me. Even if that one has issues with public toilets.

Hopefully the sleep thing is resolved by then, otherwise I will begin to dread Sunday night.

An Accident Free Day

No potty errors at school or aftercare!!!! Woot woot!!! He waited until he got home. Progress has to be measured in small increments sometimes.

Day one of Lexapro

Jimmy went to bed at 9 pm and got up for the day at 1 am.  Obviously some kinks to work out!!

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

For those who were wondering about Tuesday

"...he believes that we should increase funding for the Individuals with Disabilities Education Act to truly ensure that no child is left behind."

I kept going back to that single statement, which lead me to make up my mind in the voting the booth that I would indeed support Barack Obama. This comes up in the Special Ed Advisory Committee meetings all the time - the fact that IDEA is an unfunded mandate, meaning we get very little from it. Having IDEA fully funded would make a huge difference to kids with autism all over the country, instead having it passed through to the local school districts as an unfunded mandate. I am all for research and better treatments, but fully funding IDEA now is a fantastic goal and one I believe he could and would achieve with the help of Congress.

Having said that, I hope Senator John McCain eventually makes an equally strong policy statement on autism as part of his platform. This is not a one party issue - at least it shouldn't be.

Better Living Through Chemistry

I start Jimmy on Lexapro tomorrow to combat the OCD and anxiety issues.  The thought is maybe if we address these issues, he will pace around less.  Failing that, we will treat the ADHD separately, but only after we look at the anxiety.  It is becoming increasingly debilitating for him.  I like the doctor he went to today - she was accommodating and supportive.  She even commented that she had never seen a child with so many services, which is something I will take credit for because I have busted my butt to get the help we have (which, according to the recommendations of the developmental pediatrician, still isn't adequate for his need.)    

Tomorrow I go back to the Community Services Board so they can determine that he is indeed still autistic.  Like its changed.  We are getting services from the CSB through FAPT already, so I am really unimpressed that some underling is making us jump through hoops - I am cooking up a whole post on this debacle, oh just you wait.  The phone call to schedule this appointment last week put me in the foulest of moods.  

Before I go, I feel the overwhelming need to apologize to all the people I am blowing off right now while dealing with Jimmy.  There are several - it is sort of all consuming at the moment and even if I am not directly dealing with, I am too emotionally exhausted to deal with much else.  I have good friends going through a lot right now and it makes me sad that I can't seem to be there for them the way I would like.  

Monday, February 11, 2008

So we didn't go...

Jimmy's toileting is becoming more unpredictable.  He spent 30 minutes last night doing laps around the house.  He is more OCD than ever.  Loud places have made him increasingly anxious of late.  He cries a great more than normal.  His vocal stims are out of this world.  For all these reasons, I wound up not going to the Hillary Clinton Town Hall at Metz.  Jimmy comes first.  Yesterday I decided my poster child just needed to be my child.  I doubt the world missed us.  ;)  

He goes to be evaluated for meds tomorrow.   I am hoping this helps to address some of the more problematic behaviors of late.  I am beyond frazzled at this point.  I just want to crawl into bed and hide under the covers.

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Friday, February 08, 2008

Reality Blah covers the campaign...

Hillary Clinton is coming to Manassas on Sunday. Jimmy will go with me. Bloggers qualify for press credentials... who knew?

My sister hates me right now...

Thursday, February 07, 2008

Your weekly update...

I have been busy the past few days.  I took off last night to go to this Primary Matters events, where only the Democratic candidate reps actually showed - Huckabee's people were supposed to, but never did.  Hey, I was at least able to score the bottle of water marked for Huckabee.  I heard people from Obama and Clinton's campaign.  Clinton's guy (a volunteer who had a fellowship/internship in the last Clinton administration) was much more engaging, but I am not completely sold on her platform or policy positions.  Obama's guy was such a pro that he seemed completely disconnected from the voters.  I liked a lot of the policy points he made and left thinking I would vote for Obama, but found his professionalism and lack of engagement a little off-putting.  I really don't know what I am doing on Tuesday.  I still wish John McCain had an articulated autism platform.  Everyone should.

I lined up an appointment for Jimmy on Tuesday to look at medicating for the ADD/ADHD, OCD, and anxiety stuff that we are working through right now.  I am having such a hard time with him right now, that I am kind of shutting down.  I am starting to shut people out a bit - I know I am, but I can't help it.  I have all this weird interpersonal stuff going in my life in every setting.  Jimmy spends half his time running in circles.  Jacob is so lacking for attention that he just is a hellion regardless of the setting.  He wants our attention and can only feel it when he is acting up and out.  I am feeling so overwhelmed by everything that I feel like I would break if one more thing touched my shoulders.  It's the weight of the world, you know...

Maybe Jimmy's new doctor could write a prescription for me... some valium perhaps.  

Putting that bright side... I have lost seven pounds this month.  Something has to go right, in spite of everything...

Monday, February 04, 2008

Mac Mini Disaster

As I reported earlier, Jimmy has become much more proficient in his computer ability with all of his surfing and such.  The one thing Jimmy has not mastered is ejecting disks from the Mac.  We found out the hard way when the husband tried to use the computer to find it jammed.  Jimmy had stuck his new shark DVD on top of his Spiderman DVD.  I got a panicked phone call while I was at Tysons (location of the Apple Store) with Jacob for Jimmy's respite day at McLean.  We were just wandering the mall anyway, but I had to go to the store, schedule an appointment for later in the afternoon, drive back to Manassas to get the computer and drop Jacob off, then return for Jimmy, and then to kill an hour waiting for the appointment, then waiting 30 more minutes in the store as the Genius Bar was running late.  That's a long wait for Jimmy, but he did well - or at least was doing well until I got him back to a car and realized he had an accident during the wait...  He had started to cry while we were waiting, but I assumed it was just the wait.  I felt so awful.  
At any rate, Genius Bar guy couldn't help, so the guy took in the unit so one of their technicians could pop the top off (not as easily done with a Mac as a PC.)  He said it would be two or three days, but we got a phone call last night saying it was ready.  Another drive to Tysons and $85 later, we have our computer back.  I would love to still have that $85, but at least he didn't fry out the drive.
Pictures from the escapade...



Jacob at lunch... the one luxury I afforded myself.  He wasn't horrible, but I have had time better well behaved with me.




Jimmy playing the Star Wars Lego game in the Apple Store.  Yes, I still have to use a stroller from time to time.  A hour and a half wait in the mall.. yeah, I used it.  I need to clean that tray up - it still has stickers from the fall campaigns.

I need a weekend off to recover from my weekend!

Second Part of the Auditory Therapy article...

Kudos to the journalist for a job well done (though Alex Granados is always first in my book - personal bias!!!)

Sunday, February 03, 2008

Our local paper does another story on autism

I have been interested in this auditory training for a while now.  Sadly with the husband out of work, I don't have the extra $4000 lying around.  Since there is now someone in Prince William County doing this, maybe if he gets a job soon, this could be a possibility.  I am pleased that they continue to follow this topic so closely.  Now if they could do an article on why HB83 didn't get out of committee and how much it would mean to families of kids with special needs.  

Friday's interview went pretty well.  Hopefully he gets a callback this week.  This is starting to take a toll.  

On the next episode of Reality Blah...  How Jimmy killed our Mac and our afternoon in the Apple Store.